Family weekend has come and gone. I remember anticipating my parent’s arrival for weeks. It meant free food, shopping with my mom, and a taste of home here at SMU. I did manage to eat amazing food off campus and shop, however my parents visit reminded me that I am on my own, and that SMU is my home now- not Chicago. I loved every minute with my parents this weekend, but much to my surprise when the time came to say goodbye, I wasn’t upset. When they left me back in August, I was a mess. I was so unsure of everything and had no idea what to expect. Now that I’ve become acclimated to Dallas, and made new friends, I’ve started my own life here, independent from my parents. I almost couldn’t wait to have my parents leave so that I could resume my newly created life. Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents more than anything, but i’ve just become so used to my new routine and way of life that I was ready to get back to it. I feel guilty for being happy that they left, but it just didn’t feel right. This is my home now, and I’ve built a life independent from my parents. It will be interesting to see how things are when I go home in three weeks…will I fall back into old routines, or have a hard time leaving my SMU life?
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Going home will definitely be weird, trust me. I went home for my high school's homecoming (in Rockford, IL) and when I walked into my bedroom, it felt like a hotel room. It was so empty and didn't feel like home at all. I wouldn't really say that SMU feels like home to me yet, but since we are here so much longer than Illinios, it kind of has to be home for me. It got a lot less weird when I saw all my friends again, it was like no time had passes and that was nice.
I completely agree. I was a little upset when my parents left after I moved in in August. I didn't really talk to them on the phone that much through out september and when they came for parents weekend, it was fun to see them but I didn't even spend as much time with them as I could have. My mom stayed here for the following week at my sister's place and I maybe saw her once before she went back home. It's wierd because I seem to have moved on but I still do like to see them, just not everday. I definitely like living here in Dallas away from home and my family, just becuase it's so exciting and I feel like I control myself and my actions.
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